Thursday, January 24, 2013

TOXIC Waste Removal

Here's the latest from the TRENCHES OF WAR...

I had my mastectomy (right side) on January 4; began reconstruction immediately. The plastic surgeon installed a 'spacer,' and I've just been healing up since-pain meds, mood swings, all the fun!

Pathology showed Stage 1 Invasive Ductal Carcinoma (.9 cm), several mm or less-sized Non-Invasive Ductal Carcinomas, and also Paget's Disease, a type of cancer directly on the nipple. They got all of that.

There was also a second tumor- which they are not sure they got all of. (when I had biopsies of my breast, titanium markers were inserted in each spot).  The marker for the 'retro-nipple' area was in the tissue removed, however, the Pathologist did not find a marker in the tissues from the second tumor...what does this mean? 

I had a CT scan a week ago, to attempt to locate the missing marker, and tomorrow meet with my surgeon about that.

Following that appt., I meet with my Oncologist, who will let me know if I will need chemo or not.

Last Monday, I went to the plastic surgeon for my first 'fill' of the spacer. He injected 600 cc's of silicone into my 'boobie,' and I could actually SEE IT GET BIGGER BEFORE MY VERY EYES!! Haha!

(Mom was there, she got to watch, too.)

My skin will be slowly stretching and growing to accommodate the implant--
I will go in another two weeks for another fill, and then we'll just rest on that for awhile. 

At some point, 6-months to a year away, I'll have the plastic surgeon fix my left breast, lifting that up and making it smaller to match my new fake one!

When I'm all finished-- I'll be getting a new nipple from my own skin, and the colored-part gets TATTOOED ON!!  Is that the COOLEST EVER??? 

 I'll be a perky new version of me!  THAT'S WHAT'S KEEPIN' ME GOING!! LOL

Until then, I'm still a construction zone.
(PROJECT MANAGER, sub-contractors, engineers, laser operators, grade-checkers, architect, rollers, compactors, loaders and hoes removing toxic poison, all looking for insidious 'soft spots.')


All told, I'm PROUD of where I've been.  I have had a couple meltdowns this week,

over the actual enormity of what has happened to my life, and my body...

at the beginning, all you know is:
you gotta save your you jump right into the pool.
Later on, is when you begin to look around, and you're healing... but you hurt,

and the drain gets
REAL old, like being a DOG ON A LEASH!

The pain meds make you constipated, and thus bloated, and what do you want to see looking down past your boobs? 

(you know, it sure feels good to say all this.  I've been making an altered book, slowly but surely, but the junk I put in it, I don't always feel/think about it at certain times.)
Anyway,  thanks to my incredible kids, Caitlin and Evan, I have a new laptop to blog and work from, and so, can update my blog while at home.
I thought at the beginning of my cancer journey, I was gonna write every day.  I haven't had the energy to even sit up to a computer, much less make sense of one...and it's not the old operating system  !  NOPE...nothing by new for 'mom;'
so I'm on a learning curve with all that!

BILL GATES, we need pain-killers for your new Windows 10006!
How about a bottle, free with every purchase?!!

I'll know more tomorrow, and come back to post an update.
Caitlin, my gorgeous daughter, call this 'TOXIC.'  I made an anagram for that:
                                                                 I= INSIDIOUS
Thank you for all your love and prayers.

(I'm doing my best to kick Cancer's Ass)

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